It kinda hurts

Lyrics

It kinda hurts
Putting all your effort and still not being enough
But what hurts the most
Is not having anybody to hold on

And life would be much easier
If I didn’t feel as much as I do
And that’s probably true

But it’s not that bad
Or at least that’s the lie I tell myself

Who knows someday
Things will finally start to go my way
I’ll be okay
And life won’t always be a heart that breaks
But until then
I’ll grieve in silence
I’ll hold my breath

I’m so tired and numb
Feels like everybody’s moving forward and I can’t keep pace

And I know it sounds dumb
But as as soon I turn away
I overthink and I’m stuck in my fears
My disguise breaks in a thousand tears

And life would be much easier
If I didn’t care as much as I do
And I know it’s true
Why does it feel like nobody ever hears?
Cause I screamed til I broke my lungs still no one came near

Who knows someday
Things will finally start to go my way
I’ll be okay
Life won’t always be a heart that breaks
But until then
I’ll grieve in silence

I wish you saw
That things are not that easy and I’m not that strong
And I just need a hug
Am I asking too much?

I guess I am
But that’s ok I know you’ll never understand

And it kinda hurts
How I care about the world but the world does not
And it kinda hurts
how I care ‘bout everybody but nobody does

It kinda hurts
And I don’t if I can hold on anymore